My Hiding Place, My Safe Refuge.

Sometimes, I put too much faith into people and not enough into God. I'm learning that.
I'm struggling greatly in my life, In most areas, it's been a bumpy road, but I'm positive this is almost the end. And I cannot wait for the outcome.
I have problems displaying emotion to people, about how I feel about things, I am a bottle ready to explode but unable to until certain moments. I am noo hard on myself in somethings and too lax in others. I must ask the Lord to help me bring balance in my life. Everyday I am reminded that the Lord has EVERYTHING I need, I always forget that. I forget everything I need to remember and remember everything i need to forget. Its a never ending cycle with this mind of mine. My church is doing a corporate fast, and I'm excited for it. I'm excited to prayerfully take control over my life, mind,and emotions. I am excited to be fully engrossed in God. I no longer want to feel like a failure, I no longer want to be distracted from God, and important things of life. I need to be patient with people and forgiving. Not saying that I am not forgiving but i need to fully forgive and let go, of when people hurt me, whether they realize it or not. I must be willing to share my problems, feelings, and struggles with others, even if it means being an open book before them. 2010 will be my year of liberation and sheer happiness, complete peace, and 100% surrender. And NO ONE is going to take that way from me. Not a person, not Satan, not any circumstance.

You won’t find any stone idols in my house, only in my heart. Only You can break these barriers and only I can let You. Oh how I’ll let You. You come crashing down on my world in the sweetest symphonys and the loudest tunes. How beautiful are Your words towards me, O God. How wonderful Your plans, how infinite Your love. My torn heart ever praises You, ever seeks You, ever longs for You.