I Won't Try to Win Your Affection (title pending)

I won’t try to win your affection.
I don’t play these games, we all know Who will win in the end.
I won’t take part in your manipulation, I know your style – I know your kind.
I can’t do anything for you,
I can’t walk on water. I can’t give you life.
I can’t change your mind. I can’t force you to believe.
You wouldn’t see the Truth if it branded itself on your forehead.

I can’t force you to change, no matter how long I pray, how hard I cry.
I can’t feed you the pill and expect you to swallow it.
I can’t reach your hand towards the Truth that you know is there,
And I won’t force you to accept it, even though I would rather jam it down your throat.
I know I can’t compel you to even try, but oh how I want to.
You wouldn’t see the truth if it knocked on your door and said,”hello.”

We all have things we need to be delivered from, to each his own- to each her own.
To me my own.
I’m not even close, to perfect and I’m not even getting there but I’m trying.

My mind seems to catch every simple distraction and every blaring diversion.
I notice everything, everything but You.
Every missed encounter breaks me down a little more, beats me down a little more.
Suddenly, I can't seem to find myself anymore among this cracked broken vessel.
I'm slowly seeping through the cracks waiting to burst.
Patch me up Lord, come and awaken my soul from this ever-present slumber.
Pick up my remains and piece me together. Fill me with Your strength – Joy!
I can't do it this way anymore- I need to You.
I need you to be my escape; my ever present help and long lost Lover-
My every waking moment and each scattered thought.

I can’t live this life without You. I cant live this life and make it through.